GROWING O-L-D

i hate the realization with this "growing UP" understatement...

for me, growing UP or shall i say growing old means a lot of responsibilities..

I've learned everything has its own purpose in life..
I'm not complaining though..i'm just airing my thoughts for today since I'm not that busy with the clinic. I miss the times when I'd get up from bed thinking about what to do first--either watch dvd's or surf the internet, or go out for coffee and breakfast.
Now, I get up, check my emails, then leave for work.I don't even have time for breakfast and since I'm coffee-banned then that leaves me for nothing.
My financial source is on drought--and my bills are getting higher.
My shopping days were way back dead...now it's all buried 6-ft below the ground (thanks to e-bay and multiply I get regular deliveries for my clothing and accessories)
LOVE---the deadliest of all..I'm getting nearer to my deadline!!( cuz I promised myself to have a baby @ 27) But we're both unstable financially, and we both have dreams to fulfill.. career-wise we're getting there *almost* but I'm reluctant with the way things are with our relationship being sacrificed..things are way too dormant;boring; and so routine..I don't feel IT anymore..

SO I DON'T WANT TO GROW UP!!!